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There's BEAUTY in the *breakdown
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[May. 20th, 2006|10:27 pm] |
crappiest day ever.
work was ...well, work. made good tips, but i can't stand some of the other waitresses.
they are too lazy.
then attempting to photograph lauren m. for my first photo assignment was a bust because i forgot how selfish she is and although she said she was willing to help me out, she was more occupied finding a new pair of jeans then accomodating me for thirty minutes to get my photo stuff out of the way. whatever, being her friend is exhausting. i dont know if it's worth it. and after she made me apologize for what happened with her brother a couple weekends ago.. (i know, what is it with friend's brothers??)
sooo, erica is coming up for the night, she should be here shortly. i thought there was a party going on tonight at our friend's house, but I guess it was last night. So I figure we'll grab some food, watch movies and hang out. and I think she is going to help me with my photo project tomorrow before she goes back to middleboro. i can't wait for her to get here.
it hasn't been too bad so far because i've had class, work almost every night and my free time i spend at the wall. my roommate is friendly, but we only really converse in passing. but it'll be nice to see a friendly face! they should be coming up next weekend too, i think britt is as well. my roommate has crew nationals all next weekend so i'll have the whole apartment, cant wait! paaar-tay! |
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[Aug. 26th, 2005|11:59 am] |
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY BARB AND GRACIE!!! |
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[Jul. 28th, 2005|02:50 pm] |
currently at orientation, killing some time. got lost in boston a lot last night trying to find where i needed to check in and also trying to locate john and my grandmother, funny story, but a police officer escorted us back to our hotel because we were so hopelessly lost and he didnt think we would be able to find out way back to commonwealth ave. riight. anyway, orientation is going pretty well, I AM LIVING IN A HOTEL, and I met my roommate, she seems nice.
So excited about the hotel, maid service twice a week. woot woot. ok, will update more later, but orientation leaders are talking now so...gotta go...
vermont tomorrow, then maine. mm, summer. |
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[Jul. 19th, 2005|09:04 pm] |
Just a heads up:
Missy and I were talking about doing breakfast this sunday morning at herbs if anyone is interested. I talked to barb, she's in. ches? adrianne? doesn't matter what time, I don't have to work until 3! woot.
work today was C.R.A.Z.Y. First of all, I sold an LCD 26" tv, which was awesome and that plus a couple fendi purses brought me up to $35 commission today. but the crazy part of the day was when the power in the casino shut down and we were all locked into odysea, haha, good times. ask barb, it was fun. we played chess, and sat around, and wished the power would stay off...but then it came back on and things resumed to normal. fun while it lasted though, except for the managers freaking out about the fish tanks and the water level sinking. |
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[Jul. 11th, 2005|05:29 pm] |
so...new tentative plans for the remaining months of summer:
-Visiting britt and santia in providence to see Charlie and the Chocolate factory on IMAX next tuesday
-Taking 10-11 days off work at the end of july/ beginning of august to:
-go to MA for BU orientation
-drive up with John to vermont for his cousin's wedding
-drive to maine with John and stay with him and his friends for a few days
-drive back to CT for the COLDPLAY CONCERT AUG 4!
-then go back to maine with John for my family reunion
-hopefully another weekend in mass with santia and britt before the end of the summer
that about does it.
yup.
summer is fading too fast |
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[Jun. 24th, 2005|02:36 pm] |
1. where do you want to live after school?
mm..boston, or thereabouts i think. i like the city. I'm not sure, but I do know I want to stay in new england. I would love to go live over in europe for a couple years after school.
2. do you plan on getting a masters?
yes I do. I love school! heh, can't get enough of it.
3. is your room still orange?
yep! still orange with a star/moon theme. i enjoy it, not that i've ever home to be in it..
4. if you could be a part of any band, what would it be?
incubus! i could do tambourine or something, or learn how to dj and i could do the mixing table thing
5. when are we going to hang out?
soon? we'll have to find a time between our schedules, i've been working mornings lately so i'm off at 7 if you ever want to do something, hit up the cell.
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[Jun. 11th, 2005|08:26 pm] |
you don't do it on purpose but you make me shake
count the hours til you wake
babies breath, breathe symphonies
come on sweet catastrophe
I don't know what to do, all I know is what I feel...
waking up in his arms, feeling so close and secure, more than i've felt in a long time...
i didn't mean for it to happen, it just did...somehow it just fit. |
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[Jun. 8th, 2005|08:36 pm] |
I GET TO SEE SANTIA!!! Santia is coming to the casino tomorrow night!!! WOOT WOOT!
wicked pissa! that makes my week. |
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| "No one takes me serirousry" |
[May. 31st, 2005|01:06 am] |
| [ | mood |
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I remembered something from work yesterday: Kelly (one of the jewelry people) called me over to help this customer buying something. They wanted to use my neck to model necklaces so the woman could see which one to get her daughter for her birthday...her 13th birthday..So they were like "yeah, we needed someone to model necklaces, and you're little like a 13 year old" (exact words.) sweet. muh.
My day off was good though, went out to lunch with Charlie, took a ride in the jeep with the top down (I need to get me one of those! heh), went four wheeling, then caught up with britt and barb when they got out of work and watched a movie. And I'm excited about going to the gym to get 'buff.' I should probably wait until my first paycheck though to get a membership though.
AMERICA-FUCK YEAH!..so lick my butt and suck on my balls..
I need you like ben affleck needs acting lessons..I miss you more than that shitty movie missed the point...Pearl Harbor sucked and I miss you.. |
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| the way it's supposed to be.. |
[May. 30th, 2005|02:03 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | my feeeeeet hurt | ] |
| [ | music |
| | my big, fat cat is snoring.. | ] |
When challenge invites us
to try something new,
to attempt something different
from most things we do,
when we look deep within
or go out on our own,
to discover ourselves
to explore the unknown,
when our strong curiousity
dares us to learn,
and horizons expand
with each corner we turn,
then we know how adventure
puts dreams to the test,
and how great life can feel
when we give it our best.
"There comes a time when we must decide between what is right and what is easy.." |
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[May. 22nd, 2005|08:47 pm] |
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| | VTS-E. Smith Street | ] |
quick update:
Back from NY.
Got pics of the Amityville horror house, not very scary. will post on webshots later.
Got Courtney's boyfriend's band's CD at their release party, pretty good. (has a Nirvana/Counting Crows vibe)
Got the full time job at Odysea in the casino.
I start monday at 4pm.
oh, and on an errand run to walmart nabbed edward scissorhands, girl interrupted, and SUPERSTAR! from the big clearance bin. anyone want to watch movies sometime? heh
jenny, out. |
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| damn. |
[May. 16th, 2005|05:20 pm] |
gpa went down to a 3.95, [damn you dr. dimaio, damn you.]
STILL waiting to hear back about the job at odysea in the casino..
BUT on the upside, I'm going to amityville, long island this weekend to visit courtney from school! I'll have to make her show me the amityville horror house and see if it is as spooky as it is made out to be. I guess she can show me around the island and we're going to go see her boyfriend's band play, so it'll be fun.
*note to self-get a job in boston next summer and just stay in the city for the summer, no offense to montville or anything... |
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[May. 13th, 2005|12:31 pm] |
Just got home, I spent the night at my friend Britt's house in rhode island. Pretty spontaneous, she called and was like "hey, we should hang out before we get summer jobs" so i was like "why not tomorrow?" and so I went up yesterday morning to hang out and sleep over. She only lives about an hour away.
It was fun, we went shopping on thayer st in providence, hit up urban outfitters. I got this shirt that says "I'm proud to be a farmer's daughter" so we are going to take a picture of me in it and send it to troy in his next care package. Shopped for awhile, looked at some really neat vintage stores, bought some other stuff, then after we went to tim's volleyball game, then he came over later and we played poker. I was horrible. lol.
Brittany-"You realize we haven't actually gone a week without seeing each other yet. haha"
It was great to see her and hang out and go shopping, it felt like we were back in newport. we even had bubble tea!!! some place called tealuxe, i'll have to tell CJ about it next time I'm in newport, he would probably be interested to know.
I finally told Britt that I wasn't going back to SRU next year, she said she figured and had already cried over it, which made me sad but relieved that it wasn't a shock. I already told Santia, she was upset but she doesnt live that far from boston so we figure we can still visit when she goes home. I'm going to tell Courtney when I go visit her in Long Island next weekend, hope she isn't mad she's the last of the three of them to know...but I think she'll take it the worst, so I have to prepare for that..
I mean it's wierd to leave your college friends behind when you go home, but it's not really like we don't still talk and see each other. I'm visiting them a few more times over the summer and a couple of them might come stay at my house too, so I guess you just get used to not seeing them everyday, I mean we had to do that when we left our high school friends to go off to college, right?
I guess it's just strange because things will be so different next year too, i'll be starting over, in a way, at BU. But i'll still have my salve friends, and boston is only a bus ride away from newport. I mean if we can still manage to talk and see each other as much as we do over the summer, next semester should be fine... |
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[May. 10th, 2005|12:24 pm] |
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being home feels wierd. |
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[May. 5th, 2005|05:10 pm] |
another one down and another one down and another one bites the dust..
and by another one i mean friends, and by bites the dust i mean leaves to go home :(
my dorm is all packed up, heading out soon to have one last dinner at red parrot with miss brittany, then i'm headed home for the summer...
this all feels so wierd.
"i'll always be back, i'm like the plague!" -SM
i feel like 'little prince-esque' because i'll always have certain people close when i hear the sound of a certain laugh or i watch the ocean waves..
why am i a sentimental sap sometimes |
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| RE-creation is a form of art and recreation. |
[Apr. 30th, 2005|03:34 am] |
My adventures screaming into the infinite abyss:
Just go back from my last trip of the year out to cliffwalk at 1am to scream into our own 'infinite abyss' with courtney, santia, and britt. indescribable. [but i can try anyway ;)]
It is such a surge of power, a rush as all your voices-screaming at the top of your lungs-meld into one solid sound being pushed out at the ocean. the waves hitting the rocks seem to echo the unified scream back to you. in this moment you are original ...and cheesy ....and happy and sad all at the same time. damn, I am going to miss these moments. spontaneous trips down to cliffwalk at midnight or 1 or 2am to scream at the top of our lungs down on the rocks as the ocean rages around us, the chill of the cool night air, it all mixing together making you feel connected to each other and the moment.
The sudden excitement as one or two of you suggest the prospect of a 'screaming abyss' trip and the rush to throw on layers and hoodies, grab a flashlight for the dark corners, and head down to cliffwalk while trying to look inconspicuous. the shady people you encounter on the way there and the thrill of coming back after, feeling fulfilled and refreshed.
On this particular trip, after we had screamed at the top of our lungs at the bottom of 40 steps and then ran back up all the steps, we went to take the long way back to the dorms, on cliffwalk behind ochre, mcauley and o'hare, all the way to the corner of the breakers mansion. As we are walking along we see a blue light on in the upstairs window of mcauley and what looks like the figure of a person, though it was probably the shade or curtain.
sm-"I feel like we're in a scary movie"
ce-"oh man, that tree over there looks like the one from the ring"
jl-"this has such a jeepers creepers vibe to it right now"
sm-"we're in a picture, look ahead, it looks like it just ends, it's so dark, we are going to walk right off the screen.."
bg-"stop! you guys are freaking me out"
So after thoroughly freaking ourselves out and all of us walking huddled together for like 20 minutes we decided to take the main street back, since it would be lit and less spooky. BUT-unfortunately we lost britt's ID card during our excursion out and had to retrack our steps to find it, we spent an hour looking, finally found it back where we started...yeah.
I never want to lose that feeling, that when you feel overwhelmed or stressed, or just need to get out, you can grab your friends and go scream into the waves. and you all just understand.
sm-"it's like we walked through 20 horror movies"
jl-"it's like we're always in a movie, haha constant state of...garden..."
ce-"no..called the constant state of ...being"
jl-"yeah, i like that one better"
these are the moments I will miss.
Are you in or are you out?
Leave your things behind
'Cause it's all going off without you
Excuse me too busy you're writing your tragedy
These mishaps
You bubble-wrap
When you've no idea what you're like
So, let go, let go
Jump in
Oh well, what you waiting for?
It's all right
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
So, let go, let go
Just get in
Oh, it's so amazing here
It's all right
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
It gains the more it gives
And then it rises with the fall
So hand me that remote
Can't you see that all that stuff's a sideshow?
Such boundless pleasure
We've no time for later
Now you can't await
your own arrival
you've twenty seconds to comply
So, let go, so let go
Jump in
Oh well, what you waiting for?
It's alright
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
So, let go, yeah let go
Just get in
Oh, it's so amazing here
It's all right
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown |
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| further reflection...[thanks jenna] |
[Apr. 28th, 2005|10:28 pm] |
There are few things pure in this world anymore, and home is one of the few
We'd have a drink outside maybe run and hide, if we saw a couple men in blue
But to me it's so damn easy to see that your people are the people at home
Well I been away but now I'm back today and there ain't a place I'd rather go
I feel home when I see the faces that remember my own
I feel home when I'm chillin outside with the people I know
I feel home, and that's just what I feel
Home, to me, is reality and all I need is something real
We're feeling alright headin out tonight maybe off to a dark driveway
I say now, some feel bored, and some are looking for more, but we all just decide to stay
We got nothing to do, but when I look at you I see someone that I know and love
And with the crack of a smile we all stay awhile, we know from home their ain't nothin above
Well in the end, we can all call a friend, well that's something that I pray is true
In a thousand years, and a thousand tears, I will find my original crew
Cause to me theres no where else that I'd rather be except right here right at home
And on those long dark drives on that road at night in my heart
I feel home
I feel home when I see the faces that remember my own
I feel home when I'm chillin outside with the people I know
I feel home, and that's just what I feel
Home, to me, is reality and all I need is something real
Home to me is reality and all I need is something real, I feel my home
My only question becomes: where feels more like home to you?
"the hardest part of college is balancing the two completely different worlds you live in" |
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[Apr. 26th, 2005|11:39 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | to be continued... | ] |
| [ | music |
| | family guy in the background | ] |
[Tentative] Plans for the summer:
1.send troy a care package (sounds like he needs some cheering up)
2.clean out the truck since i'll be driving it all summer
3.might have a babysitting job lined up for july and august (but for some reason the pay seems like it will only cover gas money..)
4.apply at olive garden, OR hopefully talk to barb and steph about the casino job
5.visit courtney in long island to see her boyfriend's band play (in May)
6.go stay a weekend at santia's in mass
7.road trip to montreal, yeah canada with the sister, friends, and tom (in july)
8.a couple trips to the beach or providence with brittany
9.catch up with nate and leslie! god, i miss them.
10.hang out with EVERYONE!
Four fun packed months |
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